- I am walking with Kevin and my mom. My mom is smoking a cigarette and Kevin is vaping. My mom offers me a cigarette and I decline, saying that I do not need nicotine. We are in a park-center type of place. With decorative stone flooring, and a large water fountain in the middle. It’s mid-day, fairly sunny. I go over to the water fountain and inspect the stones within it. I’m unsure what I’m looking for. At home, I am pissed off. Somebody says something to set me off and I rip off the backboard of my bed with one hand. I probably punch the wall. Kevin apologizes but I’m still cross. I’m at work/home. My mom tells me to finish a wet-pro cart. I’m still annoyed. I’m with Kai and we’re trying to get something out of a pool, but it has a cover on. It’s nighttime and we’re in a smallish room. The pool cover is dark blue. I don’t know if we ever get what we are looking for. I am in my parents’ bedroom in New York. I leave and go to my own room. I don’t have sheets on my bed, but I’m putting a blanket over the mattress in lieu of a sheet. Dina (bruh) comes in the room and asks if she can sleep with me. I say yes. We go into the bottom bunk and I suggest we go to the top bunk instead. At the top bunk, I lay next to her. I’m unsure where to put my hands. I am nervous and my voice remains at a higher than usual register. She’s wearing black. My hand rests over my crotch, bruh. She’s showing me things on her phone. She has a unique OS, it looks like a sketchbook or like that ghost game on iPod Touch. Her phone is designed like fuggin doodle jump. She shows me some exercises on an exercise app and I’m like, those look absurd. We ask each other questions and look at each other’s eyes. I am on a bus with a yogurt being refrigerated by, another yogurt? I also have a wine bottle. One of these things were given to me by Connor, or I’m supposed to meet Connor. I am unsure. There is a strawberry and cherry flavored yogurt, I think. I am at Anthony Fantano’s post-covid panel. BONES is there. BONES is talking about his new music, but mainly about his new book. He’s funny and Fantano askes BONES if he was to join his stand-up tour. BONES is like, yeah but I’m either talking about my book or doing stand-up. Not both. Or I could do music. I’m playing Starcraft with Cole, Evan, and Beth. I’m playing purple Terran in the top-right corner of the map. I’m against Cole and I’m unsure if Evan or Beth is on my team. The map is really, really big. I do a weird build order where I’m trying to get a bunch of air units. I haven’t played the game in a while so it’s really confusing. I also have a bunch of remote mines. I amass a powerful army but don’t micromanage my units well and we get taken over.
Dreams can often serve as a reflection of our subconscious thoughts, feelings, and worries. In this dream, several key themes emerge, each potentially representing different aspects of your life.
Social Dynamics: Walking with Kevin and your mom while she smokes and Kevin vapes might suggest that you're navigating social relationships and external influences. The act of declining nicotine could symbolize a desire to assert your independence and make healthy choices amidst peer pressure.
Emotions and Frustration: Your anger at home and the destructive behavior of ripping the backboard off your bed indicates that you may be struggling with built-up frustration in your waking life. This can point to a need to express or address unresolved emotions or conflicts, possibly related to family or work expectations.
Search for Meaning: Inspecting the stones in the fountain suggests a search for deeper meaning or clarity in your life. Perhaps there is something you are trying to uncover or understand about yourself or your surroundings.
Collaboration and Challenges: The scene with Kai and the pool covered indicates a joint effort to achieve a goal, but with obstacles present. This could symbolize experiences where you feel blocked or uncertain about how to work together with others to achieve a common goal.
Intimacy and Vulnerability: Sharing a space with Dina and lying on the top bunk represents intimacy, comfort, and perhaps vulnerability. Your nervousness and uncertainty about physical closeness may reflect feelings of anxiety or insecurity in relationships or new situations.
Symbolic Contents: The bus scene with yogurt and wine might symbolize indulgence and nourishment, juxtaposed against ambiguity regarding relationships (with Connor). Yogurt being refrigerated by another yogurt could represent interconnectedness or layers of your self-care practices.
Public Persona and Creativity: Being at Anthony Fantano's panel and witnessing BONES reflects your engagement with creativity and public life. This might indicate your aspirations in artistic domains or your interest in how artists balance various forms of expression (music, stand-up, etc.).
Game Strategy and Control: The Starcraft game with friends suggests competitive dynamics and the need for strategy and control. Your struggle to micromanage your powerful army could symbolize feelings of being overwhelmed in life, where despite having resources or attributes at your disposal, the execution does not go as planned.
In summary, this dream intertwines themes of social interactions, emotional management, intimacy, and aspirations. It illustrates an exploration of relationships, personal boundaries, and your approach to challenges in different areas of life. Reflecting on these could provide insight into current personal situations or dilemmas you are facing.